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Only When...

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 09:04:03 GMT

Only When...

only when I start to think
about all the things said
then and now...
between love and hate lies
familiar massive spaces
there and now...

only when I start to live
after every death spent
another, another...
one change every cell
after time nothing recognizable
disposed,exposed...

only when I wake again
does this begin repeated screams
talk and talk...
spent words spill onto my feet
more replications of the same
details, details...

only when I understand it
run and run away as fast as I can
hatred and fear...
the sheeps' dead eyes stare
blank and numb, surrendered
waste, wasted...

by Me (Jeannine, jdnene, Nene, Taboon1...)

on a lighter note...

What do Know About Our Governments Suppression?

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 15:32:47 GMT

Impeach Bush! Is it enough, yet?

While it may seem like only months before he is out of office, sooo much more harm is being done while he is...

It is now 2008. Can there really be Americans... who think or rights are being met? That our government isn't hiding and deciding what they think we should see?

Demand the faces of the upper ranking officials, whom have not been punished, be shown.

Feb 2006
Shocking pictures have come to light revealing the extent of prisoner abuse at Abu Ghraib - and it's much worse than anyone imaged.

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Warning to Parents. Images are graphics, and horribly disturbing.

People, wake up and take a break from the mainstream bullshit.

Blown Compulsion

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 01:50:42 GMT

Caught a wish
dreamers cream
filling mind
blowing through my fingers

Dandy-tigers
aren't lions
pride fallen
between cracked doors

Songs listing
toward left
open windows
let out my compulsion

by Me

Hard Lessons

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 11:50:52 GMT

Nails pounded among the mighty
standing tall with integrity
tears rush through rivers of blood
and heart beats thunderous NO! NO! No
yes
As the nails sink into the remembrances
the embraces of where we were
what was given us unto thought and intention
controlling only where our hands meet with All things

Silence in the night repeats our heart-song
may it weep with always
and, may it sing for longer
mere moments with loves
contemplating ourselves not. NOT!
yes
As we are the nails
the hammers head understands
the carpenter must Be here
while holding you gently with calloused work

by Me

A Veto of the FISA Bill Endangers Americans?

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 13:56:51 GMT

While we are in the midst of coas, and bullshit, w are also being led in so many directions by interest driven media that we are not catching the actual words used by our president.
With all of the news we see leading us away from his words (or, should I say, jumbled talk around and threats) we are missing the truth.
These are the facts:
we are inundated with steroid use news of sports players... do I care? No. Not in the scheme of reality, no I don't!
we are watching the government stock holders and interest leaders sell dangerous drugs on TV... the CDC had recently published the very real dangers and warnings of many of these drugs, leading the suicidal, violent behavior (shootings? hmmm...) get the drift?
we are missing the point of the peoples of this country in dire need of real help.
We are funding a military that is recruiting our children. we are funding a military that leaves these people to flail without help once giving themselves to the belief that they are doing the right thing...

Al the while, our president is threatening us if he does not get his way in tapping, and listening in on all of our communications.
How many years have they been listening in?
Have they once actually heard a plot to take out our country through and email, or instant messege (should they be so stupid)? It has been admitted they have not caught the "so called" terrorists via this meassure. Nor, have they the right to take our rights away!

So, really? Are we going to die if the president does not get his way?
NO!

Here's a link to Keith Olbermann's article and video.
http://www.truthout.org/docs_2006/021508A.shtml

Still support our Military?

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 11:33:06 GMT

From Truthout

http://www.truthout.org/docs_2006/021108R.shtml

Soldier, After Bipolar Treatment and Suicide Attempts, Sent Back to War Zone
    The Associated Press

    Monday 11 February 2008

    Fort Carson - A Fort Carson soldier who says he was in treatment at Cedar Springs Hospital for bipolar disorder and alcohol abuse was released early and ordered to deploy to the Middle East with the 3rd Brigade Combat Team.

    The 28-year-old specialist spent 31 days in Kuwait and was returned to Fort Carson on Dec. 31 after health care professionals in Kuwait concurred that his symptoms met criteria for bipolar disorder and "some paranoia and possible homicidal tendencies," according to e-mails obtained by a Denver newspaper.

    The soldier, who asked not to be identified because of the stigma surrounding mental illness and because he will seek employment when he leaves the Army, said he checked himself into Cedar Springs on Nov. 9 or Nov. 10 after he attempted suicide while under the influence of alcohol. He said his treatment was supposed to end Dec. 10, but his commanding officers showed up at the hospital Nov. 29 and ordered him to leave.

    "I was pulled out to deploy," said the soldier, who has three years in the Army and has served a tour in Iraq.

    Soldiers from Fort Carson and across the country have complained they were sent to combat zones despite medical conditions that should have prevented their deployment.

    Late last year, Fort Carson said it sent 79 soldiers who were considered medical "no-gos" overseas. Officials said the soldiers were placed in light-duty jobs and are receiving treatment there. So far, at least six soldiers have been returned.

    An e-mail sent Jan. 3 by Capt. Scot Tebo, the brigade surgeon, says the 3rd Brigade Combat Team had "been having issues reaching deployable strength" and that some "borderline" soldiers were sent overseas.

    Paul Sullivan, executive director of Veterans for Common Sense, was outraged.

    "If he's an inpatient in a hospital, they should have never taken him out. The chain of command needs to be held accountable for this. Washington needs to get involved at the Pentagon to make sure this doesn't happen again.

    "First, we had the planeload of wounded, injured and ill being forced back to the war zone. And now we have soldiers forcibly removed from mental hospitals. The level of outrage is off the Richter scale."

    The soldier said that on Nov. 29, he was called to the office at Cedar Springs. His squad leader, his platoon leader, his Army Substance Abuse Program counselor and two counselors from Cedar Springs "came and ambushed me."

    He said an Army alcohol counselor told him alcoholism and anxiety could not stop him from being deployed.

    "They said, 'You know what? Tough it out. All of us like to drink.'"

    In the December e-mail, Tebo tells brigade leaders: "Evidently, while at Cedar Springs, he was started on psychiatric medications that should have made him non-deployable, but somehow no one was notified. He may have been pending a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, but that information was not passed on at discharge. He deployed with his unit and has not been doing well here."

    In Kuwait, the soldier isolated himself. He said he had "racing thoughts" and couldn't keep still.

    "I was ... burning my fingertips with cigarettes, just anything to keep my mind off of things," the soldier said. "I had homicidal thoughts. I don't know at the time if I intended on doing anything. But at the time, it was there, I had homicidal and suicidal thoughts."

    Since his return, he has been in treatment. He said his medical record contains a permanent profile for bipolar disorder, an illness that makes him unfit for military service. He is undergoing the process to be medically discharged from the Army.

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Myth of Control

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 21:23:04 GMT

-Myth of Control-

Confusion be, might
become daily needs
by and by
shuffling feet and wandering

mind

Arm to hand, automaton
fingers take the walk
forgetting purpose
the machine idles

time

Divine visionary, fleet
blinking shutter speed
capture stillness
reminders of what is

meant

Familiar scent, aged
the scene blazing
arrow pierced the marked
straight through

life

Naked truth, muted
then, rawness seeps
itching stitches repair
before rakes furrowed

paths

Controlled way, myths
tenuous stepping stones
and, become the traveler
blind compass spins

on, on...on

by Me
(Nene-aka-Jeannine-aka-taboon)

I Say Go!

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 22:31:00 GMT

So, we say want, we do
and, this allusion stinks
like too many lies
rapturous yells claim victory
in the name of
idolizing stamps licked clean
flavored paste and water

I say walk
I say run!
I say go outside
play it like you mean it
I say go!

So, we breathe
brandywine vapor
the taste of regret
saliva trails inside your head
imagined elements cut deeper
stations please!
line by line

I say walk
I say run!
I say go outside
love it like you mean it
I say go!

So, it's in the speaking flies
the buzz, the head counts
swollen tongues flapping
in the face of windbreakers
be a man! Shut up girl!
rolling and enrolling
marching human mills

I say walk
I say run!
I say go outside
live it like you love it
I say go!

So, slippage fills the pockets
copper throats and mary-janes
cracks mean different things
different strokes kiss the hollow, and drink
mechanical religious acts
spew like pews overrun
oh! savior come!

I say walk
I say run!
I say go outside
die like you want it
I say go!

by Me

(Nene-aka-Jeannine-aka-taboon)

No Exceptions

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 11:44:22 GMT

Choose we can
with intent and free
open arms to no ONE
but infinite...always
what library, this!
to browse amongst stories
and tales of adventure
and just being
connect the dots
specks we be
and see it light
blanketed earth

Beyond, yes
then, that one, this
see it, and take nothing
absorb it willingly
Faded dreams
wants and yearning
yet, forget not
sending out begins just here
with one, and one, and one...
expectations wither
among woe and tattered fancies
exceptional nothing
no bonds, no dues

by Me

Lenny Kravitz - I`ll Be Waiting- And, Ka.

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 00:16:40 GMT

For as long as I've been alive on this planet ( or, this time, 'round o_O ), one of he most important things that I've learned is, no matter what relationship you're in, those that stand true when it matters are few. Those few may not be close by. They may not be even in the same country... Yet, when you send love freely it is an energy that knows no bounds.
I'm a firm believer in human touch as healing. I do this myself... And, when this avenue isn't available for whatever the reason other things work, as well.
Voice is one form of expression...
And, then there is the ability to send wishes and thought from the core of who you are.
Keeping in mind that whatever you send is governed by the laws of nature, or Ka ( soul...). Karma is something very real. And, although we may not see the effects with our eyes, it does go 'round. It does come 'round.

It's been studied, and studied some more, the abilities to project feeling, thoughts... Even physical. Since everything is energy and matter, it is all in constant states of change...
Action and reaction theories, and even the mutant variables are energy...

So, given all of this, I found a video by Lenny Kravitz that says a lot. Next month the new music will be out in stores, and as usual the man keeps working...

While my best freind is in Africa with Doctors Without Borders, getting supplies to people whom live and die never hearing this song, or the knowledge it even exists...
send my love with open spirit, I send it free, and light...
She will feel it when she needs it.
I also send it to my son.
And, anyone whom needs that little bit of glow to help them threw this moment

Music Videos - I`ll Be Waiting